((Invites only)) Taruinia

[AngelicDream]

Okay...I'm going to speak my mind now,I haven't for a long time...but I think it's time too...

Rain,...What you plan on doing is something one of my best friends did, which hurt me to no end and I cried everyday,..but ...it's also something I did.. so I know what your talking about even if you think I don't or whatever, but trust me...that's really not the way to solve anything. There is nothing wrong with thinking about things, that is what I did, as long as you dont' shut yourself out completely...I almost lost Kage as a friend in the process when I did this, I never talked to anyone, I would try to hide from everyone, I receded within myself ....and I started to hate myself even more....and...I'm still suffering from it...I'm not the same as I used to be...

I know that this may all seem stupid that I'm telling you this, and you might even get angry at me for talking about myself when I'm really not the issue here, but I thought it may help.

Rain, all we want from you is your friendship, and I think I can speak for everyone when I say that, yes, people do need some room to breath sometimes, but...in the end we're all going to be there for each other through good and bad, and whenever you need any of us I'm sure we will respond even if it takes some time to actually get to it. I know we aren't that close...and we both know that...however, I still want you to be okay, because you are my friend and...you make me laugh...and you care about me, and what I'm going through and I feel the same for you,...so if you do decided to do what you said, I guess I can understand that, but please...don't go as far as I did...I'm sure Kage can even tell you, I'm still not the same as I used to be...and god...I wish I was back to the way I was. But just know Rain, that we all Love you, no matter what.

Love Isleein
{[AkA: Izzy]}

[Grell]

Polka

[Aiden]

Izzy, What's been up lately? You seem weird... :/

So, your car....it's really nice. olol

[Fueadyen]

Hey guys. Tis been a while, to those whom I have not spoken to since my return. I am home from basic, after being discharged for mental health, and, well, here I am! XD Yup...that's about it. Anything big that I've missed?

[Kyro]

Please dont call Felix a fairy. I know your all just messing with him and joking around but he takes offence. Also Araya got a bad picture of him so ima fix it.

[Aiden]

So there's this girl, I been seein'. She's a keeper of dragons. Not all of them, because most of them are wild, but the wild ones really seem to like her, so they've been givin' her eggs. She's got an abundance of them it seems, I asked her if I could have two of the next group of eggs, and she said I had to ask the dragons. So, I did, and I'm getting two of the next eggs. She has one from the dragons that's of special importance and she said that it was for Iffy, so if he wanted it, he could have it and if Ifrit didn't want it, she said that Kyro could take it for Felix. She says it's really important and would really like Ifrit to come by and pick it up.

By the looks of it, it's not a dragon egg. She's had this egg for a long time now, and it hasn't hatched for her. We both think it's a Sepri egg. And she has a strong feeling it's a girl, but what's strange is that she says it's not of a dark origin, like a Pheonix but she knows it's a Sepri. She thinks it color is a cool color, like green or blue and we need Ifrit to open it, because she says he's a hot head. Nia's been getting a lot of contact with her lately. [ http://i53.photobucket.com/albums/g66/L ... Keeper.jpg ]

I haven't gotten real close with her, so there's definitely a lot of mysterious things that I don't know about her yet, so if you guys can get to talk to her, I'll definitely get a lot out of that too. Uh, next time Nia's allowed to go over to your house, Rain, please ask Nia if you can talk with the Dragon Keeper.

You know what really bothers me? How Atheos's bad mood reflects on me. I mean, okay so you hate your mom right now, right? Well don't bring that to school, I mean [censored] it. I love him, sure they might just be words to him or something, but I really do and you know, I wanna make him happy and I really don't like being effected by what stupid things his parents decide to do. Sure he SAYS he'll live for not having his phone, but does that mean he'll be pissy all the time? What the [censored]? It's really bothering me. This whole [censored] weekend's been bothering me. Sure, everyone has their pissy moments, sure this morning I was being mean, sure I've been wanting to cry all this morning and yesterday and sure this has been the only thing on my mind, but it really hurts...it really sucks and I just want him to be happy when I see him during lunch. Even if it IS just a cover-up. v.v

I just want a hug. Even though he told me yesterday that he's not a real huggy person. Which really hurt and made me think if every hug he meant or if he just did it because everyone else told him to. Which then goes back to the relationship. Did he say yes because he wanted to, or did he says because he's was pushed. :/

On the outside, I show that I'm strong. I'm trying not to cry, but on the insides I'm tearing up. I'm crying. And I want to tell myself it's not because of him. I just, I wish it weren't. I don't want to leave him, I love him. I don't want him to leave me, I just..... eh, today is the beginning of terrible week.


Well, tomorrow, I'd like to go to the track meet, but being I'm me and being this week already sucks, it's going to rain. Just to kill me, shoot me down with flying [censored] colours. I hate this world. I hate those people. I hate my life, but luckily I love that boy. Even if my words mean nothing. My feelings will always stay the same.

[Aiden]

If you acted like me, talked like me, walked like me, thought like me, lacked control like me... could you honestly say you would do something else?

I don't want to apologize anymore, and have you guys disappointed in me because I don't change. So I won't say I'm sorry at every turn. Even if I want to. Even if I do, I'm sure you'd just scoff and think that I don't mean it, because its the same way every time.

It's okay Kelly. You are who you are. We are who we are. And if we compare you and us to Francis's parents, we are all just. like. you. We are little drones and clones of you. But we're not. Each and every one of us is a completely different person and people, ignorant, blind, mindless bigots of Earth government who can't tell that difference doesn't deserve to have an opinion, doesn't deserve to talk, to breathe, to live, no matter how gut wrenchingly harsh that might be.

It's okay not to say sorry, and you're not being selfish. You're being you. You don't have to say sorry for your actions, not all the time. I don't. Wish I could. Wish I would sometimes, but I don't. It's what people do. What humans do.

[Grell]

If you acted like me, talked like me, walked like me, thought like me, lacked control like me... could you honestly say you would do something else?

I don't want to apologize anymore, and have you guys disappointed in me because I don't change. So I won't say I'm sorry at every turn. Even if I want to. Even if I do, I'm sure you'd just scoff and think that I don't mean it, because its the same way every time.

It's okay Kelly. You are who you are. We are who we are. And if we compare you and us to Francis's parents, we are all just. like. you. We are little drones and clones of you. But we're not. Each and every one of us is a completely different person and people, ignorant, blind, mindless bigots of Earth government who can't tell that difference doesn't deserve to have an opinion, doesn't deserve to talk, to breathe, to live, no matter how gut wrenchingly harsh that might be.

It's okay not to say sorry, and you're not being selfish. You're being you. You don't have to say sorry for your actions, not all the time. I don't. Wish I could. Wish I would sometimes, but I don't. It's what people do. What humans do.

But I'm not Kelly, I never have been. Even when I was. Just. Kelly., I knew I wasn't. I always hated that name because it wasn't mine. Twenty million other people in this world have the same name, but I have my own name, no matter how many others might have one that's similar. The language, the way you say it, who the person behind it, the meaning in it. I am Rain. I'm Rain, and I will do whatever it takes to keep from slipping into the dark, meaningless, empty pit that was a little play of the name Kelly. I will never go back to being just Kelly. Never. I refuse. If I don't know anything else, I know that.

I don't totally know what the rest of the first paragraph was saying. I've reread it, and maybe I don't want to know. I do know that everyone is alike and everyone is different. You can compare people's lives, find the same meanings and stories and lessons, but I know one thing. I'm not like the people here, and I refuse to live the same empty lives they've lived. And that's what my life will be here. Empty. Because while I have you guys, I don't have a lot of other things I need to live. I don't even have to say what they are, because you all know. I know you all know. I don't even have to say most of this stuff anymore, because we're all on the same page. We all know.

And humans aren't the only things that don't apologize. Don't limit us to that.

[Aiden]

You're right. My dog doesn't apologize when he poops or throws-up in the house. :/


He looks like he's sorry, but really all he's trying to say is "...you weren't home" or "I couldn't make it."

"I'm a dog, I can't use a human toilet."

Rain, you're right. You're not Kelly. It was just a stupid common name given to you because your Earthen parents aren't creative. Do you know the reason why Fate gave you the name Rain? You should ask her.

Rain, what's wrong? I saw you earlier, this morning. Nia was scared. She didn't know what was going on and....

[Grell]

What do you care what's wrong, Toby boy?

[Kage]

Warning: I am going to be really angry for the next couple of weeks. Please just leave me alone and do not bother me. Kages moods are also afected by my own.

[Grell]

That's fine. I'll just stay at my house for the rest of forever.

[Kage]

Stop it! Knock it off. When ever something goes wrong you always act like this! You need to act better! Your mood effects everyones! I know life sucks but you deal with it. Stop hurting yourself and stop pointlessly hurting other people. Your a leader...ACT LIKE ONE!

[Grell]

Good. You tell me what to do. Every minute of the day, tell me how I'm supposed to be, and I'll do that to make you happy. How's that? All I've ever been good for is taking orders anyways. I might as well go back to being a slave.

[Kage]

Leaders are not slaves. We are strong people who hold others up. You need to be what others need. To serve them and yourself. You need to give them a reason to die for you.

[Grell]

Unfortunately there is no reason for that. I'm nothing special. I can't do anything, and the only thing now is an idea that, with my luck won't even have a chance. But seeing as waiting is the only other option, I'm going to try.