((Invites only)) Taruinia

[Kage]

You are special. You're alive. Isn't that enough? You do alot here. You help others more then you think. You are the reason why comunication is so easy between people. Also don't even try with you deal with Chaos. He won't take it. Darkness blinded him even more.

[Grell]

What communication? I don't do anything. I'm worthless, and I'm sick of feeling useless too. You wouldn't understand that though. You can actually do something.

[Kage]

YOU DO ALOT! ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS LOVE YOU! You are important to them and to Aic. Stop being an idiot

[Grell]

I AM an idiot, if you haven't [censored] noticed THAT before. Everything I do is irrational, irresponsible, and I am the BIGGEST IDIOT EVER. ITS SOMETHING I'M PROUD OF.

AND I DON'T DO ENOUGH. BECAUSE IF I DID WE'D BE SOMEWHERE

[Kage]

You can't help what happens. ITs not your fault that your here. Its not your fault that you cant get home! Its Chaos's! You can't change that no matter how much you want.

And just because your "irrational and irresponsible" doesn't mean that you are an idiot. If it did that would mean that everybody in Taru is an idiot (including your elda.) [censored] AND LIFE HAPPENS! DEAL!

[Grell]

Yeah. Life happens. I'll just go find another one to live than.

[Kage]

Go die then and as you suffer watch everyone you care about be miserable

[Fueadyen]

Rain, you're not worthless, and you know my standing on your self-demeaning. Quit it. Now. You're our leader, our friend. You say you don't do enough, but you do. A good leader knows their limits. A good leader also does their best to exceed those limits, and you have done that exceptionally well. Please, pull yourself from this self-inflicted hole of depression and hate towards yourself and be the Rain we are so proud of, the one who knows what to do when the need arises and the one who makes us feel welcome. I implore you.

And Kage, that was uncalled for -_-

[Grell]

I didn't say anything about killing myself. I'll just go pretend this never happened. Yeah, dying might be an eventual consequence of it, but its better than waiting for something that will never happen!

[AngelicDream]

First off Tysol, it was Ifrit not Kage.

And Second, well...if this is how everyone is going to treat each other? I don't know if I want any part of it... but I'm gonna stick around anyways, so...yeah.

[Fueadyen]

Thanks for the correction. I stopped trying to keep up with the different colours ages ago >< And I never mentioned anything about you saying you wanted to snuff yourself Rain. I just said that I don't enjoy seeing you in such depressive states. But apparently that doesn't matter, eh? So stuck on not caring about yourself that you seem to have stopped caring for the rest of us as well. Yea, thanks for that one. Real good [censored] job. -_- Patience is key Rain. You have none. If one does not have patience, then one's mind is clouded, for their mind is jumping from this and that, waiting for something to happen upon a multitude of things, and thus you cannot focus. For [censored] sake, FOCUS! You know what you have to do, what you have been appointed to do by us because of our respect for you, god dammit, I want you to [censored] do it. We all want you to do it. Remember, you didn't have to accept. But you did, because you believed in yourself, just like we believed in you. So, if you don't mind, get your ass out of your hole and be you again. It's not hard.

[Aiden]

What do you care what's wrong, Toby boy?

Because I wanna make sure you're not going to try and do something you're going to regret. Chaos doesn't want anything from anyone right now. It's not all Darkness's fault.


It all started with Fate and myself making Chaos one ornery pidgeon.


Anyways, Chaos won't open anything anytime soon, and Rain nothing you say is going to bend him over and let you give him what he needs. :/

Patience is key Rain. You have none. If one does not have patience, then one's mind is clouded...

Tysol, there isn't a point. I've been trying to tell her this since the beginning of time, and she still hasn't gotten anywhere.

Rain, I don't want you in another mood like yesterday. For Taruinians it was a bad, bad day to do anything. I know that if Ifrit went anywhere you would've killed him. Yesterday at the table you said that you wanted to kill Mizu, but when you get the way you do, ornery, pissed, you make him....stronger. Like Ifrit to fire, Mizu is to storms and rain. Rain, your moods effect the weather.

... And as much of an [censored] Ifrit has decided to be this week, it doesn't mean you get to be destructive and kill him.

Hurting yourself in front of people doesn't get you anywhere either. Yesterday, Nia wanted to leave you so bad, she wanted to just get away from you because you were mutilating yourself, but she didn't because she loves you, because she doesn't like it when you feel alone, she doesn't wanna leave you because she's your friend and she cares about you, so much more than she shows and you care to see. I don't like to see you hurting yourself because it won't get you anywhere. You're whinning about not being able to get anywhere and hurting yourself or thinking about killing yourself or whatever is going to negate that more than the feeling of not being able to get anywhere. Rain, you just a human on Earth. The only one who has any control of what you're doing and where your going is Chaos. And as much as Ifrit thinks Darkness has an effect on Chaos, he doesn't. No one does. The only things we're getting closer to are his death and his forfeit of his reign, his rule over Taru. I've been helping him, I got him a Rune to walk again, now I'm a favorite. Rain, if he dies before you get here, he's not going to give the power he wields to a brother. He doesn't trust them anymore. He'll give it to me....and when you get here, I'll give that to you. And if you want to earn it, you can kill me to have it. I want you to have whatever you need in order to get ahead, to have an edge on Darkness. Defeat him. I have faith in you.


Also, Tobias, that woman, ask Ifrit, she used to be with him for a while. I think her name is Heiko. I don't really remember anymore, but ask him. I'd suggest after Kage and Ifrit are done having some huge pole stuck where the sun don't shine.

Alright, Fate. Thanks.

Also, I'll be out most of the day, if anyone has any questions. The only time Nia will be around is probably during lunch for that boy, Atheos.

[Fueadyen]

Point or not, I don't give two [censored], to be honest. If it takes being brutal, then dammit I'll be brutal. -_- And if it happens while I'm up there, she'll find I can be even more persuasive in person. ¬¬

[Grell]

And I never mentioned anything about you saying you wanted to snuff yourself Rain. I just said that I don't enjoy seeing you in such depressive states. But apparently that doesn't matter, eh? So stuck on not caring about yourself that you seem to have stopped caring for the rest of us as well. Yea, thanks for that one. Real good [censored] job. -_- Patience is key Rain. You have none. If one does not have patience, then one's mind is clouded, for their mind is jumping from this and that, waiting for something to happen upon a multitude of things, and thus you cannot focus. For [censored] sake, FOCUS! You know what you have to do, what you have been appointed to do by us because of our respect for you, god dammit, I want you to [censored] do it. We all want you to do it. Remember, you didn't have to accept. But you did, because you believed in yourself, just like we believed in you. So, if you don't mind, get your ass out of your hole and be you again. It's not hard.

First off, I wasn't talking to you when I said that. I was responding to what Ifrit said about me going and dying.

Second, I have never stopped caring. Not for a minute. I might hurt myself, but I do it so I can get back on track. When I hurt myself, you guys respond a hell of a lot better than when I just go up and talk to you. Its easier for you guys to say something to my face if you're mad. I might not have patience, but patience isn't the only way to focus and find something. My methods might be bad, but I figure things out either way. You guys get mad, and you tell me what you feel, and then I can figure out how I feel about everything. When thinking isn't enough, you go to others.

Okay, so my method is really [censored] up. So sue me.

Patience is key Rain. You have none. If one does not have patience, then one's mind is clouded...

Tysol, there isn't a point. I've been trying to tell her this since the beginning of time, and she still hasn't gotten anywhere.

I don't care about patience. I've never been patient, and I never will. You guys need to learn that.

Rain, I don't want you in another mood like yesterday. For Taruinians it was a bad, bad day to do anything. I know that if Ifrit went anywhere you would've killed him. Yesterday at the table you said that you wanted to kill Mizu, but when you get the way you do, ornery, pissed, you make him....stronger. Like Ifrit to fire, Mizu is to storms and rain. Rain, your moods effect the weather.

Mizu will be dead if I EVER see him face to face. I hope he knows that.

And I didn't realize my mood affected anything aside the others here.

Also, you've helped me solidify another fact I've been wondering about. I'm the equivalent of a catalyst.

Hurting yourself in front of people doesn't get you anywhere either. Yesterday, Nia wanted to leave you so bad, she wanted to just get away from you because you were mutilating yourself, but she didn't because she loves you, because she doesn't like it when you feel alone, she doesn't wanna leave you because she's your friend and she cares about you, so much more than she shows and you care to see. I don't like to see you hurting yourself because it won't get you anywhere. You're whinning about not being able to get anywhere and hurting yourself or thinking about killing yourself or whatever is going to negate that more than the feeling of not being able to get anywhere. Rain, you just a human on Earth. The only one who has any control of what you're doing and where your going is Chaos. And as much as Ifrit thinks Darkness has an effect on Chaos, he doesn't. No one does. The only things we're getting closer to are his death and his forfeit of his reign, his rule over Taru. I've been helping him, I got him a Rune to walk again, now I'm a favorite. Rain, if he dies before you get here, he's not going to give the power he wields to a brother. He doesn't trust them anymore. He'll give it to me....and when you get here, I'll give that to you. And if you want to earn it, you can kill me to have it. I want you to have whatever you need in order to get ahead, to have an edge on Darkness. Defeat him. I have faith in you.

Thank Nia for caring. Its not that I don't notice a lot of things, I brush them off because I don't know how to respond, or I don't feel like acknowledging them right then and there, but I do notice and I do appreciate everything everyone does.

And this body might be human, but bodies never mattered to the soul inside.

Mother, I appreciate your sentiments, but I'm not sure about your trust in who Father will or will not give his power to. And I refuse to kill you over something as petty as power. If you want to give me his power, fine. That's your choice, but I have my own that I'm going to find.

Point or not, I don't give two [censored], to be honest. If it takes being brutal, then dammit I'll be brutal. -_- And if it happens while I'm up there, she'll find I can be even more persuasive in person. ¬¬

And you'll find that I'm not a pushover.

[Fueadyen]

To throw your point out the window, I respond a helluvalot better when you just talk to me. Make me angry and I just get physical << All you have to do is ask. Simple as that. You know I'm straight forward. And a few of the others wouldn't mind it either, I'm sure. You just talking to them that is. o.q Seriously though, quit with the self-mutilation. It's annoying. -_-

[Grell]

I can't find the words if I'm not in a bad state of mind. I can't find what I want to say or what I mean or what I really feel when I'm just thinking normally. I've always been in a state of anger and mal emotions since I was in elementary school, so its easier when I try to figure things out like that.